Well here I am writing it now.
One of the major reasons why I haven't done this is that, I really suck at describing myself.
Of course I can list the facts, at least physical ones. And all that, but when it comes to telling
"Who are you? What are you like? Tell me about your nature."
I get numb, suddenly my brain is empty. "Who is this Cakey, you're talking about? Never heard. Nope"
Well I'll start listing the easy ones:
• I'm born December 10th 1992. It makes me 20 yrs. 'Old'.. Although I've been told to look over twenty for last five years. And I'm quite mature, but I can get childish in seconds.
• That makes me have the best zodiac sign, which is Sagittarius, if you didn't know. My rising sign is Leo, and it shows! And my Chinese Sign is Monkey.
• I'm 165cm...ish tall (It's 5,4' )
• I'm mentally quite unstable, so far I've diagnosed to have;
• Depression (serious)
• Insomnia
• Borderline Personality Disorder
• I have some Schema's (Psychology)
• I might have slight OCD, my doctor isn't sure. (It's a big might)
• Also she's not sure if I'm schizophrenic or if I have divided personality
• I'm dyslexic, I have especially problem with numbers. BUT I'm better than average on visual side.
• I'm Bi-Sexual, and Single.
• I have 10 tattoos, 5 piercing (Tongue and 4 Microdermals in my hips, both side have 2) and 5 earrings (one is stretched to 16mm/ 5/8" )
• I'm creative person who has wild imagination
• I don't trust people, so if I trust you, you should be honored!
• I don't feel being either of genders. Well yes, I am girl, physically at least. But I've felt more like a boy since daycare. And I feel uncomfortable for being girl. But I'm too lazy to start changing my self to another sex. So I'm just something between there. My style is mainly quite boyish.
• I'm really sarcastic, sassy and witty person. People think that I'm dumb because my sarcasm is so advanced.
• I have two cats. Einari who is the love of my life, he's black Siberian Cat boy. Tinker/Heli (Her real name is Tinkerbell, which is 'Helinä' in Finnish. I also call her 'Ruuu~' because the way she meows) and she's blue tortie silver mackerel Norwegian Forestcat. (I had rats, but my last bby passed away 30th Dec. 2012)
• I'm always obsessed of something. Usually it's one or few actors. And movies/tv-shows. And by obsessed I really mean it.
• I change my hair style pretty often, well I have approximately two different styles in year. It depends how I'm feeling. And I usually change it quite radically, when I do so. I have had short hair for years now, and sometimes I'm idiot and grow it bit longer, then I get annoyed and go back to short.
• After a year of growing my hair, I got fed up and cut it back to short! Dark brown color.
• I'm hoarder. I try to not keep everything possible that I find cute/awesome/interesting/cool or "I might need this"/"I can make something out of this on day"
• I'm pretty spoiled. But not entirely, but somewhat.
• I have really selective memory. I can remember tons of lyrics, movie dialogues, etc. but when I should tell what I was doing few days ago I can't remember anything. And there's no way I can remember numbers. Some few number combinations I remember, but it took years to learn my own phone number and social security number (which is 4 digits).
• I'm already running out of thoughts.
• I'm unbelievable egoistic. And selfish.
• But then again, I hate and despise myself so much that none of my haters could do it better. And I wallow in my own shittyness.
• As you can see I'm quite divided. I don't really have any middle ground. I just don't speak out loud all my thoughts, so everyone thinks I'm somewhat sane.
• I have three sides in my head that argue together. I have the realistic one whom is really sane and knowing -one. Then there's the two idiots, feelings. Whom are the good one who thinks that "OH YES! You should totally do it, what ever if you fail. I mean C'mon what awesome experience you get from there! Let's Doooo Itttt!!!" And the forever downer that's like "You'll fail anyway, so why bother doing it? Why would you put your energy to something that's doomed to fail? So don't come crying home if it fails, coz I told you so. So whom have you really should listened. mmmh." ... Then I struggle between them and list pros and cons with my realistic side and think what I should do. It's very exhausting.
• If you ever read Sagittarius nature descriptions, I'm straight from there. Aside the sports. I hate sports in general. I do Snowboard occasionally at winter. And I try to workout with my punching bag. But other than that I'm just like what they say, with a hint of Leo on the side.
• I have anger management issues. I'm violent person. But I have had to learn to control my anger and not attack people whom annoy me. I don't talk my issues out with the person who annoys me, I'd rather roar and growl at them and then keep punching them until I feel satisfied.
• I have a lot of temper. If it's not clear at this point.
• I don't show my real emotions to anyone. Not even for my therapist. It's a problem. Bad habits grow hard.Idk I'm done during this night. I'd rather let someone else describe me. Because that's honest opinion on me and that's how people see me. And that's how I seem outside.
I'll keep on adding things and updating this when ever feeling like it.
Feel free to leave comment below and tell what have your experiences of me been. :)
I'd appreciate that!
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