Train to be trained

I don't remember if I've ever talk about sports or dieting in here.

Or anything related to getting my lazy ass self into fit shape. Probably not?

(I'm just gonna drop all these pics around here)

Well I've finally started to do something about it. It's been a long time since last time. 

   I think I mentioned that I've been wanting a punching bag for years now, and I finally got it, but I was too sick to start training. Now that I'm healthy enough I finally started today (root for me that I'll be actually going to continue!).   

   The only sport that I have done before this (somewhat regular) is Snowboarding. But obviously you can only do that at winters. And in last few years I haven't snowboard at all.  

   I finally was smart enough to realize that because I've snowboard/skied since I was five. It's the reason why my legs are the only body part that are muscular. Well my tights are covered with laziness, but otherwise there's nothing else than muscle in my legs.

Of course also normal exercise, like walking instead of using bus/car have been part of the reason. But I have never really been into sports, at all. Actually it's reverse, I hate sports truly from my heart. I don't even watch sport, it's annoying and looks exhausting.

     I've been interested in riding and motocross. But I never ended up doing either of them, partly because they are expensive hobbies.       

   Boxing is (along snowboarding) the one that I've been interested in for a long time and really wanted to do it. Boxing, because I need to punch someone and I need to let feelings out. And I do it by beating someone, so instead of bruising my little sister, I was told (~5 yrs ago) that I'll get a punching bag. And now finally I have it. I just feel stupid hitting a sack instead of a real person, it doesn't really get your adrenaline up. And the sack doesn't respond to that and hit you back, which also raises adrenaline. But I really don't have a choice here.

  

   My main reason is still, so cliché, I want to build my body to look good. Especially my arms! I like muscular arms, I just adore them. And I'd kill to have nicely muscular arms. And boxing trains power and arm muscles. So it's pretty much a dream sport for me. Technically. Of course I also wouldn't mind if I could get my stomach flattened and build my general shape better.  

Indeed, the problem is just that I might (a huge big might) have asthma. And/Or something's wrong with my body, like my blood circulation and air supplying stuff kind of wrong. 

I know that I have low blood pressure and I'm almost anemic. And because of that I can't do sports like aerobic, or any fast and 'lots of moving' sports. I'll faint if I do that (oh them memories |D )... I've experienced many 'near to fainting'  cases during middle school's P.E. and then my friend's walked me to the nurses office to sleep next two hours. So that's because of my blood.

Then the other problem is that I can't get breath correctly. Yes I do breathe, and No I'm not pacing it wrong. And it goes to my lungs, I feel it. But it doesn't go to my head, which makes me dizzy and I have to keep tiny pauses to get a steady feeling in my head.

I've argued about this so many times. I know my health isn't suberb, but my problems aren't based on that. I keep on going even if I feel that my muscles wan to give up and I push harder. But when you   can't breath, it's different. I also do make sure that I have eaten before training, so it's not my blood sugars fault, that it would suddenly drop. 

So yeah, I have something in my system that needs to be fixed. I get out of breath way too easily.

I feel like I'm bouncing on different areas and not really getting onto my point. To be honest, I'm not even sure what IS my point :'D ... 

  Well of course I'm not gonna get in shape just by moving my lazy ass around. 

  It needs a good and healthy diet. At this very moment my diet is basically 'Anything that I find eatable in our fridge', but then again I'm pretty picky of what I eat. 

  My worst thing about eating, is that I don't eat at morning, nor during day (depends when I wake up) and I drink cup of coffee when I wake up, and another one around 3-5pm. And when do I eat?

At nights, I stay up and watch movies or be on computer and I end up snacking. 

  Or I might eat heavily, it highly depends what we have. 

And then I go to sleep after that.

But other than that I eat pretty healthy, I rarely eat fast food like pizza, burgers etc. 

And I love rye bread, so I get fibers. I also eat these mineral/vitamin pills so my hair and nails grow better and stay stronger (zinc, calcium & magnesium). 

My newest love is Vitamin Waters, they have finally arrived to Finland! Unfortunately we don't have all of the flavors :( 

My own faves are Multi-V (Zinc, Lemonade flavor) and Power-C (C & B-vitamins, Dragonfruit flavor). 

I love them, and they don't have bubbles, it's still water. (My tummy don't like carbonic)

Usually my diets are pretty simple. Well depends which one I pick. 

There's the easiest and probably healthiest one, I just leave out all the un-healthy stuff. Like candies, sodas, cakes, pizza, etc. Everything that's pretty much coated with sugar or fat. But you have to have some treats for your self. Like every week you can have good (and healthy) food, that's maybe better than your average food. Or ice cream. Or well pretty much anything you like. For me it would be probably chinese food or fruit salad. I've notice that when I start dieting, I actually make really good and awesome food. Otherwise I'm just too lazy to cook.

I have never counted calories, nor anything. I would get obsessed if I would.

Then there's my so-not-healthy -diet. I pretty much let my self to starve. I eat really tiny amount of food daily. Maybe a sandwich, or like that. But I drink a lot, and I mean like many liters a day. Well yeah, you lose weight fast, but you also get suberb tired and hungry. You need very much will of power to resist it. But I'd like to say that I don't recommend it to anyone!

 Since, when your body doesn't get fats and energy from the food you eat, it starts to burn the ones you have in storage and you'll be 'working' in half of your power.

Sometimes I combine these two, but I only have few days when I don't eat. Or I have tiny fasting, maybe a week long. So I burn extra fast and then I continue my diet healthy way. I just need to be motivated.

Because it's very hard when you're the only one in the family who does so, and my mom likes to have something sweet with the coffee, so we always have something in the house. 

My weak spot is chips and salty snacks. It's no biggie to say no for greasy and sweet stuff. 

But after it begins to be routine you wont miss any of that. And you need to be creative so you'll make healthy snacks for your self. For me it's also to have them so that none else eats them! 

 Well I think that I took the food up because I was supposed to say that now while I'm again starting to diet, and now I'm also combining training to it, I really need to know what I'm eating.
And it's good that before training you get energy, proteins are best ones. Because they wont make you feel stuffed and full like carbs do, but they still get your energy up.
   So I have now tested this new(ish) product that has more proteins than normal products. They're called Valio ProFeel (sry only Finnish site), and they're basically milk products (flavored & 'original' yogurts, quarks and milk drinks) and good thing is that they're lactose free!
I'm not sure if these really work, but they're tasty and they don't give you that stuffed feeling. So I think they work like they should. But we'll see when I have used them more :)

I first thought that I'll stop eating carbs, but after doing some research I noticed that it would be stupid. And at least at this point when I'm still starting I don't need to bulk up, since I have *cough* mass where to build up. But idk when I'm at that point that I have to start bulking I'll do some more research about it.

(I just realized it's Thursday.. HAPPY THOR'S DAY!!)
  So now I have set my self some sort of 'training schedule' .. And my goal is to train at least three times a week, at least 30 mins at a time.
I hope I'll be able to do it and make my current eating habits better.
(I'm gonna miss night snacking!)


But I feel confident about this! Since I really really want to look good. Thank God I'm vain person, otherwise I wouldn't have motivation.

I feel bad for you guys, since I jump from topic to topic and it's all just one big messy shit written all over. I try to keep in one thing and then my thoughts run wild and blah.... Sorry.

I have probably never said in here that I don't feel like being a girl and I'd rather be a boy. And I've been thinking a sex change seriously for many years, like 10 years. I was really young when I found out that you can change your gender. And I have thought it and always think that I will do it, for years.
But for reasonable reasons, and selfish reasons I haven't done anything. This really isn't much relevant to the subject.

But uh, since training is also one form of modifying your body it is kind of relevant. And I think that well trained girl ain't hot. But little muscular and fit looks good. And I really don't know what I want to do, because I want to have firm and big(ish) biceps and arms in general.
But I hate my upper body, boobs and chest to be correct. I've always thought that I will eventually get rid of them. Because I really wanna have trained and firm chest, but then again, I don't because I'm girl.
If I would be a guy (and have same thought world as I do now) I would train my body to be alike to either of Chris's! I just adore their bodies, they have great shape and well built muscles. And those arm, oh god let me die! (And irrelevant to this, but of course their faces, voices and natures are unbelievable as well!)
 Yeah, I'm just super jealous XD .... 
I know someone wonder at this point that, then if I feel so gross in my body, why I haven't change my gender, well simply one reason: I don't have a chance on a straight guys anymore. I just love guys too much to chance myself.

   But it's another whole story of me and my gender issues and my pros and cons lists about of changing.

 Back to the actual subject! I have no idea why I left this till here.
Well today, indeed when I was having my first training session, I had about 45 min -session with my tiny breath breaks.
First ten minutes I tried my best, but I just felt awful. So I had to go and pick my asthma medication (It was for my bronchitis, so I can breathe at nights) and after taking that, I felt really good. It opens up my lungs or something, well makes me easier to breathe! And, yeah I felt exhausted and out of breath, but not like I usually do when I exercise.
So I think that I really need to discuss with my doctor and get diagnosed for asthma so I'll have permanent medication.

Anyways, I also noticed how big effect music has. I had my iPod on whole time, but the songs. Some of them really encouraged me more than others. So now I've been thinking that I need to do playlist that has good songs for workout.
And something happened, that has never ever happened before. I felt really exhausted, but good and relaxed after all that. My knuckles were red and sore, even though I have gloves. And I was feeling sweaty, but still energetic and good and woah! 

Now I get those people who gets good vibes and feels from sports and all that. I have never got it before, so I thought that it's just impossible to feel good for sporting! 

But now I get it. You just need to find your own sport.

I felt like I could go on, but I knew that I need to stop and  I'm gonna make myself some routine to it and not star with too big bite and then tomorrow I'd be in total spasm and swear that I'll never move again.

I feel that I've blabbered wayyyy too much already! Now I'm gonna shut up and idk do something :'D! But yeah, even a sport -hater might find a suitable sport for themselves, might just take a while!

~Cakey

Ps. Hey toss me a movie for Monday ;) 
Again, I'd be nice if it would be picked out of my last seen/Rent a Movie list's!

Movie Monday #5

Avengers Assemble!!

So first of all I'm sorry I'm almost two weeks late with this |D ... Like I last time told I'm sick, I indeed had bronchitis. And tomorrow my antibiotic regimen ends. I'm not yet feeling so well, I've had now two days in a row a fucking bad headache. But I don't want to delay this post anymore! After this I'm again open for any movies to 'rate' :) ... But now, into the movies! I'll be 'rating' ALL Avengers -related movies. I kinda scratched this subject in this post. So I'll be going trough them in the order I watched them.

Hulk

Honestly I think that this is the WORST Marvel movie ever made. And this movie was one of the reasons why I had problems to start my marathon, because I really didn't want to watch it. Since it's so freaking boring and bleh! Just NO. Only good thing in it is Jennifer Connelly and Josh Lucas. I personally dislike Eric Bana, and for me I don't find 'Hulk' qualities in him.    

  I also dislike how they made Hulk, or his appearance. Oh well, I think that it's most closest to the comics. I haven't read any Hulk/Avengers comics, sadly. So I really don't know how loyal to the origin this movie is. But I could imagine it started like that. As a story it's okay and good. But it doesn't catch your attention. It just doesn't work. 

I have watched this movie two times in my life. I really regret buying it on DVD. I hope that one day they'll re-do this with Ruffalo as Hulk. And add that 'something' in there so it'll work and is actually interesting.

  I'll give this 1/5 Stars, for few good actors & for trying.

The Incredible Hulk

I was expecting something a like to the previous Hulk, but with Edward Norton. THANK GOD it wasn't! So yeah my expectations weren't high, quite reverse. They were more like doubting and negative. The start was indeed very weird, it began from like middle of nowhere and now instead of the 'normal' story (he works in lab, and oh my god tested and hulks out and flees and etc.) he's now searching the cure. And Betty didn't know that he Hulks out and well yeah you know the storyline~ 

Anyways, I liked this movie from first time. And it gave hope that there could be actually good Hulk movie. I liked the casting as well, much better than in the previous one! But still even thought I like Norton as an actor a lot, he doesn't fit as Hulk in my opinion. And Liv was really nice and pretty as Betty. Only one that annoyed me was Tim Roth (Emil Blonsky's actor), idk he just has something that annoys me. Yes, he does good job as Emil and 'super soldier', but his face just sets my 'annoyance' vibes up.

I also rrrrreally liked how they had done Hulk this time. I think he looked really sympathetic and more real in general. Also I really liked how there were references to the future movies, and from other Marvel 'universes'. And of course I enjoyed that Tony came to the bar at the very end. 

Solid 3/5  (, If you haven't seen either Hulk Movies, watch ONLY this one ;) )

Iron Man

I think that I remember when the first one came out, and I thought that 'that movie probably sucks' ... But when first Holmes (obviously with RDJ) came out and I fell hard for Rob I ended up watching Iron Man. I remember thinking that it's just full on action with some weird robot stuff, but at least I'd have my eye candy :'D. Again Marvel proved me wrong! I'm thankful for it. 

  The Start didn't catch me, it was numbing my expectations. But when it got further I got genuinely interested and it wasn't what I indeed expected. And Tony Stark became one of my favorite Marvel characters. His nature, all the egoistic and sassyness and AH! Mostly I loved him, because I could relate to him so much, well much and much (when I watched this, II one & Avengers with my GF she said that I'm so Tony with all that egoism..). Also I really like Pepper and Happy. Pepper is my fave female character. 

After watching this few times, it unfortunately gets but boring. Well partly! I mean I'm bored of watching his time in the cave, and Obadiah's solo parts, but I love when Tony is inventing and updating his suit and Pepper moments and all that. And I like Jarvis, I want to have that kind of system in my house! I want my own Jarvis! 

I also was surprised when I heard that this was directed by John Favreau, who plays Happy! I was just amazed! XD Because I'm that kind of person who don't really pay attention to director :'D

  Well, indeed I'll give it 3½/5 Stars. 

Iron Man II

I have to admit that this is one of those sequels that are better than first part. At least in my opinion. I like the villain more, I liked the story more, I liked how they got more onto Tony's character. Pretty much everything was much better!

Except one thing. And if I wouldn't have watched these two movies in a row, I probably wouldn't have notice it. I'm ashamed, really really ashamed that I noticed YEARS later that they changed Rhodey's actor! WHY?! I mean, yeah I knew that, kind of. I noticed that the face and dude had changed, but I'm so stupid that I never realized that it was the same character. I liked Terrance better. I hate if some character gets 'replaced' with new actor with no reason, or obvious reason. So yes, I liked v.1 Rhodey better than new one (Don Cheadle).

Also I think that Mickey Rourke is convincing as Ivan Vanko. And I like that he gives actual challenge for Tony. I just wish that they would have given more depth to his character, since now it is 'just' kind of buff-genius-evil  -person who wants to have his revenge on Tony. Because there's so much possibility and potential for good character. And hey, where the hell Justin Hammer just suddenly popped? Who is he? What's their past and relationship with Tony? Now he is just lame side character. 

Unfortunately many new faces in Iron Man 2, don't get much of attention. They are neat and nice to look. They're convincing on what they do. But it leaves up the questions of like who are they, why are they there? Okay Natasha/Natalie/Black Widow get's explained, and so does other SHIELD -guys, which is good and necessary for regarding future movies. 

I really enjoyed Scarlett's acting. She was really good pick for the role. And I enjoyed how Pepper was 'bit' jealous over her. It really hurt me when Pepper and Tony got bumps and cracks in their relationship, I really wanted to yell for Pepper that it's not entirely Tony's fault, and yell to Tony that he should tell to Pepper and tell her about his feelings and ARRGH! But I'm really happy how it ended.

I was left to think about the fact that Tony creates new element. Uuuuh, yeah, right. That was like a bit over, in my mind. Okay he does it cool way and it gives hope for the bad daddy issues. But still... In my opinion it was too unrealistic. 

And I have to say that I love how they ended it in waiting for Thor~♥

4/5 Stars.

Captain America: The First Avenger

I remember when this came to theaters. I was supposed to go and see it, just because it's new movie from Marvel. But I never did, I kind of forgot it ors... 

And I asked my friend whom had seen it in theater, that if it was worth it and was it even good. And she told me that it was 'okay' and she filled me with synopsis. Cap didn't catch my attention, seemed quite boring movie.

Then one day I have probably found it cheaply on somewhere and bought it. And I still vividly remember when I first time watched this movie. My opinion was:

"This is the second crappiest movie from Marvel. Only Marvel -movie that's more boring and more shit is Hulk!" And I kind of regretted buying it. 

The movie is placed on 'era' that I don't find so appealing and it just didn't hit me. Well yeah there was the nice moment's when Chris got buffed up and was in tight (or none at all) clothes. His body is indeed marvelous. 

I just left this movie to rot in my self. It mocked me from there. One day when my GF came over and since she hasn't seem like anything and then I 'force' her to watch movies. I decided that "hey, we'll watch Captain America. So you'll see how bad it is!".. And so we did. 

Well it wasn't THAT bad that I remembered. And bby Steve was hilarious to watch. And young Howard Stark was nice. (And at that point I had seen Thor) And I got the Tesseract thingie and I knew new trivia about the movie, so it was nice to notice them in there. 

And well I still won't say that Cap is my faves, nuh-uh. But it's not that bad.

I have noticed that the more I have watched it, the more I grow to like Steve and Cap. But nah, I really don't find Cap as "Superhero" type of person. 

I feel actually sorry for Steve. He's kind of lost puppy. And I think that Cap -hair doesn't suit Chris that well. I prefer different kind of looks for him. But I wouldn't change anything in Cap nor in Chris for this role. 

Also I like how they've done the Cap's outfit. And how they have used different looks for it. And I think that the last suit looks the best. It's bit dark and rough looking. 

I just don't get the "semi"-ending when Cap 'has to put the plane on water' ,why couldn't he land? Okay, I'm not sure, since it wasn't explained. But okay, if the Tesseract was the power source of the full plane, then yeah I get that all control is pretty much lost when it dropped to sea. But since nothing is really explained, I can't know. And Steve kept saying "There's no time" so did it mean that the bombs would explode when he lands? I think that it was the only major flaw, well not maybe flaw, but i wanted more explanations! Otherwise I got almost everything that was meaningful for the story. And of course I get that Steve was 'must' get to froze & found years later, but idk... It annoys me when things aren't explained well.

Uh... I'll give it 2½/5 Stars :)

Thor

I really don't remember was I supposed to go and see this in theaters. Probably not, because my first opinion was "Oh my God, LoL 'Thor' are you guys serious...." kind of mocking approach. Apparently all Marvel movies that I have somehow mocked or thought that they are totally un-interesting have become my Marvel favorites. Now I later regret that I didn't go to see this in 3D to theaters. 

Indeed, I found this one on sale and bought it. Just because I should probably own it coz it's from Marvel. 

And I liked it from the very beginning. I liked it. 

Now I love it. I love it so so much! Now because I've grown to love this movie so much it competes from my love with Iron Man and my eternal dilemma do I like Thor or Tony (Or Loki) more XD! 

Well. I hate that they have cut out some REALLY important scenes, that would really need to be there, since they affect the whole attitude to the movie and especially towards Loki! 

And even shittyer is that the scene that should be in the movie is of course in deleted scenes -extras. But ONLY on Blu-Ray, in DVD deleted scenes it's not there, No fair (for those who don't have BR)! 

Because Loki is not really evil, he is just really misunderstood! I mean the scene they left out was when Odin falls to Odin sleep and Thor is banned in Earth. And Frigga makes Loki king! Loki didn't want to be king! And when he's fighting with Thor on the bifrost, he yells to Thor "I never wanted the throne, I just wanted to be your equal", Loki truly loves his brother and Thor loves him back. But Loki is trying to get Odin to love him and approve him, and be enough and show that he could be equal to Thor. 

Yes, Loki does it bit wrong way. But his intentions are actually good in my opinion. Well he just wanted to belong there. 

And in the scene where Frigga makes Loki king she says to him "Asgard is now yours, make your father proud" if I remember correctly! So she lays this pressure on Loki to be 'Good King in his fathers eyes'. 

And I really hate to read Loki hate that he wanted to take over Asgard, because that how it really looks without that scene!  And it seems that Loki wants to kill Thor and hates him, but no Loki truly adores his big brother and looks up to him. But he wants to be equal and show that he can be trusted as well. 

I'm also fucking tired to read that it's Thor's fault that Loki 'turned evil' or that !!!()"!)¤P¤!¤)P/ It just get's me mad. I'll just zip it now, otherwise I end up ranting so horribly. 

This movie really gets my emotions up, because I really love Loki and Thor pretty much Equally. And ... .... .... oh my god I feel like I'm gonna start crying now, just by thinking of all the feels I get while watching it. Woah. 

Well as you might see I have really a lot of feelings towards Thor, and all the characters. And thanks to Thor, it brought Chris Hemsworth to my life. And Tom Hiddleston. I adore them both. 

I've also read some people complaining about that this movie isn't like the mythology. Well uh news flash! It's based on comic, that is based on mythology. And some have complained about that Hemsworth isn't fitting for Thor, that he's just brainless bunch of muscles. Well in Thor's defense, I think that he is just not from this planet. He might not get all human things right and I think that Hemsworth is perfect pick for Thor, he has great deep voice and he looks like giant teddy bear, but he also looks like he could punch anyone to the ground in seconds if needed. And in the comics it's not exactly like in the mythology, it's not BASED on it. *Sigh* .... 

I'm just very defensive towards my babies. But I do admit the few flaws and other not so awesome stuff. 

I think I should shut up about Thor now.. .... 

     4½/5 Stars (because it don't have that scene in the movie!)

The Avengers

I don't know where to start. I've been staring this a while now. I really don't know where to start. My brain feels numb after that Thor -rant. 

Well I waited this movie like a moon to rise! But I couldn't attend at the premier. I was really devastated when I realized it. I was in Rome at Supernatural convention when it came out in Finland (27th April). And I have quite a big OCD about that. I.must.get.to.premier. I just must, otherwise I rebel and wont go to see the movie, if it's something I've waited. Well of course I went to see the movie when I got back to Finland.

 And so far this movie is my "#1 Most Watched In Theaters" I'm still not sure if I've seen it 7 or 8 times in 3D @ Theater. 

I loved this movie from the beginning to the very end. I just fell in love, all my babies in one movie! OMG YES PLZ!!  I'm just dazzled about this.

Yes well it had it semi-boring moments that get boring after you've seen the movie few times. And the ones that you'll love even after ten times! 

I think that the only uh... 'flaw' is that the movie is predictable. Well at least the main plot and events. 

I'm seriously speechless! I don't know what to write, I don't have words, I'm just numb and mesmerized and I love the movie. And my feels as written down would look like this "scnhdvbjslvb<lshgöoghnvö!!!!" .. I really don't have anything to complain. And I really enjoyed the extras that are on my Blu-Ray (It's ridiculous how tiny amount of extras are on dvd), I have Steel-Box version. And there are some nice deleted scenes. Nothing really important was left out. And the movie really doesn't feel that long, it's easy to sit trough, and it captives your attention. The final battle was mmmaybe bit long, but there was some really nice funny moments, so it wasn't just pure action mash up, it made it much more bearable. 

And I think that it was really good that all the characters got same amount of screen time (or so it felt). And nobody really steals the show, okay Hulk and Iron Man are quite scene thieves :'D ! 

Also the brother moments between Thor and Loki were heartbreaking, and I have wanted to squeal and scream at theater many times. And go and yell to them. 

I really wish that Nat and Clint would get movie that would concentrate to them more, and I think that everyone wants to know what happened in Budapest ;) ! They are indeed quite canon couple. 

Chitauri warriors were nicely made, I really liked how they looked. And I really liked the uh.. .. Chitauri floating/flying beast thingies (o__o;;) ... I just liked them in general.

I think that the movie was really well made, no big mistakes, nor bad effect fails, nothing super unrealistic weren't there. 

Even the ending was good, when Manhattan was pretty much destroyed and the news were on and there were divided opinions of Avengers. Because I would think that, that's how it would really go. Not all appreciate that center of the city is fully destroyed and then what? But they did save them after all.

And The end of course where Thor takes Loki and Tesseract back to Asgard (waiting Thor 2!! ♥) and everyone just goes separated ways. 

I really don't have nothing bad to say, of course I hate that Coulson died ;;---;; ... That's so far most horrible thing Loki has ever done! And I hate that they're still arguing with Thor. 

And my poor Loki bby got smashed by Hulk! Thought it was hilarious... .... 

I still think that Steve/Cap is uh.. I feel bad to say 'not necessarily'.. But then again I think that he is indeed the Captain of that team, the one who puts all them together and gives orders finally. But then again, Nat or Clint aren't superheroes, they are just well trained. And Cap is Super soldier. Even though he isn't so amazing as Tony, he is the heart of the team. I think.

And I still love Loki, I actually grew to love him even more. And his hair is to die for ;;--;; And his outfit is so dashing. I like his helmet and 'main' outfit more in Avengers than in Thor. And I melted on my seat when he appeared in Stuttgart. So handsome... I just can't take all those feeling. And his entering to the whole movie! Awesome!

Well all the characters had nice entrances. And Thor's was one of my faves as well, but none can beat Loki's! Hmmm....

About Hulk. I really have grown to like Ruffalo the best Hulk. I mean his appearance is somehow teddy bearish, and he looks really nice and shy guy. But underneath that is something dangerous. So yeah I've grown to like Ruffalo the best. He does convincing job. Even though that was one of my main annoyances when I first heard that there's "new" Hulk. But I grew to like him, just as I've grew to like Steve.

So That's it for Avengers, 5/5 Stars! 

Future Upcoming Movies

There's few movies, related to this post, that are announced and I'm just waiting more news and trying to get everything out that I can. Most of all I think I'm just waiting to get ANYTHING! XD 

Here's tiny list of what's (possibly) coming;

  • Iron Man 3  -This's coming next year's spring.

  • Thor: The Dark World -I'm probably waiting this the most. 2013 Autum

  • Captain America: The Winter Soldier -Spring 2014

  • Nick Fury -This is just Announced, but hoping the best ;)

  • Avengers 2 -And this has been announced recently, 2015

Now I'm just gonna leave this here and idk, maybe sleep....

♥; Cakey

ps. I need new movie for Movie Monday ;)

Sick of being sick

As you can probably guess from my title I've been, and still am sick. It's the only reason why I haven't been updating my blog. I'm completely drained from energy, but I feel responsible that I need to post at least something in here.

This started on last weeks Friday. Out of nowhere, boom! I got fever, and straight to 38-39° (Celsius, go and find your Fahrenheit converter yourself!) and that's a lot for me. I don't know like what's my normal body temperature is, but when I'm even like 36,8° I'm not feeling well.

  And also the coughing started, and next day it had gone worse and my slight cough was now terrible. And I started to cough (slime/)sputum out. And felt that there was a giant ball of mucus/slime stuck deep on my throat that makes breathing hard. 

  And of course all the wonderful joint and muscles pains gets extra painful.

So since my fever didn't drop, and my nights were hell to sleep (even with the power of painkillers). We decided to go to see doctor. Since I wasn't so thrilled to go and queue for hours on the public side, we reserved appointment on private site. Right on Monday.

  For those who don't know Finnish healthcare system is lil different. There's public side that's open to all and then there's Private side. But it costs much (well compared to public), but if you have insurance you can get part of your money back from there. (difference is like public~15€ and private~+70€) 

First I had thought that "Fuck No, I'm so not having another angina AGAIN!" (It would've been my 5th within a year) and of course I told the doctor my doubts and all that's been bugging my body etc. And he said that he really can't be sure. Since my lymph nodes aren't that swollen and my tonsils are looking ok. But he sent me to get tested in lab just to be sure.

  I assumed it was only (I think it's called) pharynx culture, you know when they took the long cotton swap thingie and swipe it on your throat and it feels like your gonna throw up, yes? But I soon found out that they also needed my blood. There's seriously nothing I hate more than blood tests. I'd rather take a pet spider than let people steal my blood. Usually they're taken from elbow pit/crook. I have good veins and they're easy to sting, but my elbow crooks are really sensitive. And it's always like "It's like a mosquito bite, it wont hurt long. Just a little sting :)" WELL FUCK NO! I can fucking feel the needle in my vein and the pressure when the blood goes in the tube! I'd rather take one mosquito bite. I've been told that it can be because my vein has a "V-shape" that it crosses soon after that so it can be more sensitive because of that.

But the lady who was taking it saw how totally inner panicing I was and asked if I preferred that we took the test from finger tip. My eyes widened and I was like "Really? You could take it from my finger, yeah. That would be so much better" It didn't hurt at all when she took the blood test. And when I panic of blood tests I'm barely breathing and uncontrollably shaking and firmly keeping my hands tied so no one can sting me with their evil needles.

  But yeah the doctor really couldn't do more than order me more painkillers and get me tested. 

So my mom was impatient and wanted a solution faster. We could see some of the results from computer like next day. And mom called the doctor, apparently the guy works in private only on Mondays and on public for rest of the week. Oh, my mom is also working on healthcare -industry so she knows usually and she knows what those tests means etc. 

   And my fever just didn't come down. It's really painful. It's either too hot or too cold and it's never a good position. And the coughing hurts and oh god now I'm sweating my ass off, so I'll toss the blanket away, But wait! Now it's too cold. So yeah. 

  So! Mom called to the guy and he said that why didn't we go to public? And that we need to get my fever down, because if it wont come down it's starting to make my organs feel too hot and the heat starts to damage them. And that when I've had ten days of fever she should call again or do smt. I really don't remember correctly what, but yeah.

And then mom told that I need to be taken new blood tests, but she can take them in here. But I need to go and get taken new pharynx culture. I really was at too bad shape to panic and resist mom at Friday morning when she took two tubes of blood out of me. and later that morning I went to hospital to get that test done.

Mom saw the results later that day on computer at her work and my inflammation rates were sky high (for normal ppl they're like less than 5 or 10, mine were 60), so something is wrong. But we still don't know the culture's result... We'll see them on Monday then.

So today's ninth day of me being sick. And mom is worried to sick. My fevers been everyday over 38°, witch isn't good. My every single muscle is aching. It even hurts to breathe. My lungs hurt. I'm tired of coughing, because every time I cough, my abs hurt so much that I feel them my stomach rips apart and my back snaps in pieces. There's tinnitus in my ears all of the time, the volume of it just changes.  My head aches. I feel like every breath I take is penetrating acid in my lungs. My skin feels like it's melting off and sticking to every surface that it touches. There's no power in my movements. I have lost my apetite. The fever is making me have terrible nightmares and they woke me up and I cannot sleep after that anymore. Then there's always oh so pleasure with arrhythmia.

  The only thing that I try to do is force myself to eat at least something everyday. But I drink a lot, well I probably sweat most of it off.

Mom said that it's probably already got into my lungs and it's most likely either pneumonia or bronchitis.

Einari has kept me company a lot. He needs attentions and since most of my, well all of my days I'm laying on sofa. He has come to see if I'm alive like every fifteen minutes and meows at my face and always needing scratching :'D Like now. He insisted to get in my lap even tou there's laptop and not much space. Well he's my 'little' black sunshine ♥

I'm sorry I haven't write my latest Movie Monday, I DID keep my Avengers -marathon, even thought I didn't feel like it, since I was so drained. But I did. I've also watched all the Scrubs I own, I need moar ;;--;;.

Sincerely yours, Cakey.

Oh, and ps. I'm going to doctor's on Monday. again. To see what's next. I hope I wont be hospitalized. 

Movie Monday #4 +Movie Monday #58

And now because of the title somebody's gonna be confused.
Well This will be my 4th Movie Monday, as in the normal tradition I started.
And the Movie Monday #58 is from the Finnish blog, and my contribution to it.

I think I'll start with that, so the assignment was to describe the

 "Perfect conditions to watch movie",

 as in like, do you enjoy watching movies rather alone, with someone, in theaters, maybe in your bed etc.
I found this subject interesting, and for some odd reason I still haven't done any of the weekly challenges from that blog. So this is my first one.

  At very first I totally hated going to movies, as in theaters. All alone, I always needed company with me. Well I still wish that I would have it, but now I have find it rather nice to go alone in movies. And I'd rather sit apart from others, I find it extremely anxious if I need to sit next to, not to even mention between two strangers.
  If I could choose one place where to watch movies, I'd say theater. Because they usually look the best on big screen with high quality sounds. And most of the theaters have nice seats, they could add more space for legs tou! But the tickets are ridiculously expensive, thank god they now have gotten cheaper at day. That's why I usually have now start to go on movies at day time. It's also nice and quiet usually by day when everyone's at school/work.
  I nicely managed to slip from my subject #OOPS.
But nothing wins having a nice movie night at home, and you can pause the movie and take breaks without losing a moment. And well basically you have the power to control how to watch a movie.
  Especially now that we have better tv and better, pretty much everything. And I have seen the difference between DvD and Blu-Ray! I like to watch movies home. I just wish that our sofa would be more comfty.
  And snacking during movies. I'm quite divided to have two totally different opinions on that and habits.
I dislike eating anything that makes sound in movie theaters, And idk I just don't find it a habit anymore, I used to! And now I have even changed sodas to mineral waters. Occasionally I might get candy to there, but rarely anymore. And then when I'm at home, I have like a freaking buffet of everything that I even slightly might crave, and I tend to eat while watching movie.
But I don't always eat during movie, if it's one of those movies that I love and it keeps my attention on grasp during the whole time I don't eat, but it it's even a bit boring I start to snack anything on my reach.
  I think I just scratched the company one. Well I like to watch movies with people. But I enjoy most to watch them alone, so there's no one who might get my attention to escape from movie. And oh god how I hate those whom ask during a movie "Who's that? Why did it do like that? Oh god, what's gonna happen? I don't get this, what lnfvkln???" I HATE that, then I just reply "Watch the fucking movie, PAY ATTENTION!" or "It will be explained" or then I just reply quickly. That's one of the reasons why I like watching movies alone.
  Oh and almost forgot, the 'timing' when I watch movies. I prefer to watch movies around 8pm-5am. That's my ideal movie time. But it's not always acceptable, since I still live at home. But when I have occasion I just watch movies whole night. And like I mentioned at very start, day time screenings at movie theater.
   In a nutshell:  Home, Alone, Possibly with food, At Night.


And now to MY Movie Monday #4 ;)

The Last Song

I admit it, I bought this movie finally because of Liam.
Well to be honest, it wasn't original reason. Kind of... Well if start at the very beginning?

I remember when this was about to come out, umh 2010? yes. And there were all these trailers and I remember thinking that I might actually want to see that.
And that there was some nice handsome looking guy in there.
Can you imagine the shock I got when I recently found out that it was Liam. No, you can't.

I also have to confess that I really hope that I was asked to write about this movie, or from The Expendables 2. Hih~
But now I'm feeling quite blank and have nothing in mind what to actually say. #Oops

Well I think that Miley is not actor, I just don't like her. And I've never been much into her music neither, but the them song of this movie "When I look at you" I actually good, or I at least grew to like it, and surprise surprise it's by Miley. Here, it's the official version, so I think it's also kind of mini-trailer for the movie :'D haha.

I think for me this goes to my category; Guilty Pleasure.
It was good, but really I just dislike Miley. I really have nothing against her, I mean she is nice girl, but something in her face annoys me. Maybe it's because she has so round face ors... I don't know, but does it really matter? No, exactly.

For some odd reason I like these partly clishé movies that goes just the same. And I admit that it would be cool to accidentally bump onto ridiculously handsome guy who fells in love with you. And blah~

And oddly, I don't know if I'm the only one (most likely not). But these movies makes me really sad, and empty inside. Well I know why it has been like that for now, but I'd rather not talk about it atm.
  After I first watched this movie few days back, I was assuming I'd feel like happy and warm inside, because it'll be cute movie that makes my mind soar in happy fields. But quite opposite.
I just felt super empty and destroyed, and I just wanted to cry. I didn't cry.
  Even thought the movie had happy ending (I hope I'm not spoiling too much by saying that).
Second time wasn't that bad.

I think I partly could relate to that movie, well like not exactly and fully, but tiny part of me. Well tiny part of me always tries to relate to any movie I'm watching. But the idea.
 Second time I watched this with my mom like few days later I had seen it. Since I knew she likes that genre of movies. She enjoyed it.

I feel that I've said everything in mind about this.

In general; It is really cute movie. I enjoyed it. 3½ Stars.
Warning: You might need a cuddling buddy during/after this movie. :)

~Cakey

P.s. -- Next week's Movie Monday, we'll be Assembling the Avengers ;) So I don't need movie recommendation to next week.
    Also; Yesterday I watched two movies in a row, First Eden Lake and then The Soloist. Two totally different kind of movies. And in Eden Lake there were Kelly Reilly (Mary Watson, from Holmes) and Michael Fassbender (Magneto form First Class) it was weird to see them together in so different kind of movie, it was horror/thriller movie. And Michael's characters name was Steve.
  Then in The Soloist, RDJ's characters name was also Steve. I just laughed so much for this when I realized it during the movie. And Jamie Foxx's characters name was Nathaniel Anthony blablahbla..smt. And all I could  think rest of the movie was Tony x Steve... Because name 'Steve' is forever and always now on Captain America. I had fun... Even tou either of those movies wasn't so good.

Wake me up when September ends

Fun fact: My original title idea was "The Productive Disaster in Kitchen" .... But then I realized that September had just started and that maybe I should make title out of it. And that my topic might not fit under my original idea.

I'd like to remind everyone that tomorrow is Monday (although in my head I'm feeling like Saturday today). So it's time for another Movie Monday! I still don't have any recommendations, so throw one for me?
I just today updated my Last Seen -list & Rent a Movie -page! After I have managed to write this entry I'll be watching two movies, The Soloist and Eden Lake :)
Again I'm gonna say that it would be preferable to pick one (or several) movie(s) out from either of those lists!

Oh god my attention span id like rodent's, it's not fun when you need to do something that needs your full attention. Like writing a blog. I just do shitloads of things at the same time, and aimlessly surf around my tabs and see if anything has happened. And then I come back and stare this. I know what I want to write, but I have no idea in what order and like .... ... what am I really gonna say. And I'm also looking the clock like "ooommggg I need to write fast so I can go to see the movie before it's like 4 am!" (It's 8:35pm atm)

Ehh, well I got into baking again. I love baking so much. But the problem is that I have no one who eats all of the things I make! Because I have these phases that I just bake and bake and bake. Also one thing that makes it semi hard is that me and mom can't have any lactose in our foods, well I try to avoid it, but I really don't care. But mom can't stand it at all, sometimes she does eat a little food with it and then her she's having hard time :s ....

But yeah, My GF had asked if I could bake Mocha cakes/pastries. Well of course I agreed, since she didn't allow me to make cake. So I told her that I'll do one sheet of normal ones and one sheet of my own adapted recipe.
Here's the result;

Hmm the pics are acting weird again. They should both be horizontal. Well, I'm not on a mood to fight with them!   

So the left one is my own variation. And the frosting didn't go the way I planned it to... I had never ever melted marshmallows so much and like made a frosting out of them, also there's white chocolate and strawberry flavored powdered sugar. I was aiming it to become bright pink, but it ended up being brown and hard... I think I accidentally caramel.. ...lisided (???) the sugar. I dun know the real verb and neither does the dictionary. But you know when you heat up sugar and it melts and becomes caramel, yes? Well yeah I think I did that, So it became super hard. I still need to clean the pot where I made this. Here have some visual. Srsl that brown stuff is stone hard! XD

And you can't even see the bottom, I poured some hot water and soap there so it'll soak. The bottom ot that is like pitch black and stuck in there! XD Well not the first time I've managed to make something sticky.
In the end it wasn't so bad tasting! It was like Slightly strawberry flavored Daim.
Next time I'll manage to make it better! XD

And uh in the right pic is the normal mocha cakes :3 I think I should make new sheet of them for us :) I enjoy doing them... And then I'm covered with icing sugar! Well I don't mind, I find if hilarious.

I also made some American pancakes, I just LOVE them! They are worth the work. I mean we have so much different version of 'normal' pancakes. I think they came out ugly looking, my previous ones (in my memory) seemed much prettier. But when I found the pic, they are quite a like. They're just piled up! And pf course they're served with maple syrup!

One day I'm gonna make pretty ones! One day....
I made these right after I woke up.
And I managed to fill the house with thick smoke. Srsl if you went to room that was closed and then came out, you could see that everything was grey XD!
I happens when you're using real butter to cook something and it takes longer than few minutes. Like if you're doing omelette it usually covers the whole pan, then there's no time to make smoke. But when doing these, there's space to form the "extra" smoke. I like doing these c: I just wish there would be ppl who eat these :<

I was supposed to make these on Friday, but I it was so late, and we watched The Last Song with mom. And I only managed to make Ham-Minced meat  -quiche. Idk I just feel weird to say 'pie'. Because you know it's full sheet of pie, so quiche sounds better. Well what ever, here:

This is one of those pies that when you eat one of those huge pieces you're instant bloated!
And I like how it's not so basic.
It also has one of the best crusts that I know. Since there's instant-mashed potatoes -mixing added to there. It gives a smooth flavor to it. And it's not so pizza alike that it may seem.
I was tempted to put the vegetable - mashed potatoes version in there, since I like it. But I ended up putting normal one.
Also I like how the topping is not just cheese. There's the mixing of eggs, creme cheese, milk and grated cheese.
I have done this exact same quiche once before, as in meat flavored.
Maybe next time I'll do 'sea' -version :) with tuna and shrimps!



I think the last one was that I made also a card for my GF. She always demands hand made card. So here's mine.

I hope that collage of photos makes sense.
First of course there's the front view, with Charlie the unicorn and Thor, he has pint in his hand!
And that number 20 is made out of tiny pieces of paper that I have cut myself.
Then the cat that says "BLÖ" It's just like "Blergh" kind of utterance.
Ummh the pic below the cat just shows the 'card' that was inside the pocket. It says (in Finnish):
"With this ticket you're privileged to: Movie night at the day* you wish in good company" (the asterisk has marked in the back and says "If it fits both parties")
And the lowest pic is obviously the inner look.
If you can't read the speech bubbles:
"This drink, I like it. ANOTHER!!" "I took the alcohol out if it" "WHAT?" "Brother, you've just been LOKIIII'D!" (ehehe -written with lighter green in the bubble like x100 XD) "LOKI!" 
And as you can see the bar's name is Laufey's, and there's Tony and The Huntsman in the bar ...

Okay now I can FINALLY go to see those two movies :)
Oh and My GF hadn't got a spider, I was like "NO FUCKING WAY!" when she told me that she had gotten "alive birthday present" for herself, I guessed it was the spider. But thank god no, it was the snake. AND MY GOD IT WAS SO SOFT AND CUTE AND ;;---;;  I WAN'T ONE! It was quite like this;

Ghost colored Corn Snake.

-Cakey