Movie Monday #1

So this is my first "Movie Monday" (It's not related to the Finnish Movie blog with same name)
And surprisingly I got a movie for today to review!

What's Your Number?

I admit it that I found this because of my darling Chris Evans. And at this point I have to say that I think that this is probably the best movie from him so far. 

Okay badly phrased, best character. Even thought I do love Cap, but I still love him more in this. 

I have never been really fond to romantic movies, nor to comedies. But there are some few that hit me hard and they are my guilty pleasures in genre of movies.

I think this movie is really alike to The Nanny Diaries, and recently I found out that the leader male actor in there is also Evans! 

So as always when I'm starting to watch this type of movie, my inner skeptic already hates it and thinks that it's most likely like all the other sappy movies - full of reused ideas and some sappy clishé romance bullshit, flavored with lame humor.  

In this case I knew that there's at least candy for my eyes, so I could sit trough the movie without dying. 

But, I'm positively happy that this movie prove itself wrong and was actually good! Not only because of Evans. And I think that even if his character would have been played by some other actor, I still would've loved the character. 

I rented this for first time when I saw it. After that I bought it for myself like within a week or so. And I was shocked that in the DVD version there aren't any other special features than the extended version! Like no gag reel, I should buy the Blu-Ray version and sell my DVD. But I admit it's better than nothing! Because in the rental version there wasn't even that, so it was  indeed pleasant surprise when there was extended version  of the movie. One thing that has bugged me a lot thought! The girl in the cover doesn't look like Anna Faris at all! 

Also I might add that a very nice add is that in most of Chris's scenes he's shirtless! ;) One reason to watch this movie. And idk when I finally bought it I have watched this so many times already and I cannot get enough! 

I think the idea of this movie works. I mean yes, the basic story behind it is quite used and simple, but the story it self is cute. 

My god I suck at writing reviews, or well this is more like a collage of thoughts about the movie, not really a review. Well anygays!

 I recommend this movie to all, even for those whom don't like this kind of genre! ;) 4/5 Stars.

~Cakey

ps. Give me new movie(s) for next Monday! 

And I kinda decided that if I wont get any, I'll just review movie that I've seen last! :)

Edit; I also added a new page called "Movie Monday's" and there will be all of the reviews.

Toss Me A Thought

Yes, you're getting not only one, but two post today!

I was thinking that I need to rant my feels out because no one ever comments my post *boo-hoo*
So I had an epiphany!

It also kind of brings life to my original blogging idea!
But I need your help. (yes, you who are reading this)

I'm gonna start doing this "Rating a movie" once a week. And you can choose what movie it is.
It can be from my own movies, or you can throw me any movie, if I have seen it. And if I haven't I'll try my best to find it and see it.
And I'll be writing my feels and opinions of that particular movie.
You can toss me more than one. But at this point I'm not waiting to get tons of these |D

Oh and, I'm doing my reviews either Sunday or Monday from now on.

So comment in this post (you don't need to have account to comment, and you can stay anon if you wish) and leave a movie in here! :)

~Cakey

The Horror of the movies

Idk, am I the only one who thinks that could be a movie title, no? Okay.

Horror movies. 
They are shitty. Seriously I could count probably with my one hands fingers the good ones that I've seen. And I've seen plenty. In this I'm not counting thrillers, just horror ones.
I think there should be labels for different kind of horror movies, because it's quite wide genre. I, myself label movies (in general) in 3 different kind categories:

• Good ones (i.e. "AWESOME" "It's was good")
• Shitty ones (My "It was ok" is considered here also)
• And lastly "There was good looking actor(s) :)"  My most common one, it also get's extra label above.

But yes! Indeed horror movies, they need to be labeled onto different 'under categories'. Usually I end up laughing and mocking the movie during it, and 4 times from 5 the movie is SO predictable. And how many times it's the same pattern? Seriously. Even in the most cliché cases of Action movies they might surprise, but how many of Horror movies have done that?

Okay there is one good under-genre of Horror, and it's psychological. BUT usually it's then labelled as Thriller. Like let's say Silence of the lambs (and it's 2 sequels, Hannibal & The Red Dragon), they have good idea and well uh Hannibal was boring and not so interesting, but The Red Dragon is just pure awe!
Usually this genre is kind of confusing as well, or so many ppl claim. I rarely find confusing movies confusing. Because in my brain it's totally normal, maybe it's just my odd way of thinking. Or I mean like I find maybe movie just plain weird, not confusing.
What the hell I'm doing, rambling about non-related stuff AGAIN. I should not have blog because of this.

I usually buy some random horror movies in when they are sale, and that way I have got most of them. And my GF likes horror movies, so she has a bunch of them as well and then we lend them to each other.
And we watch them together and I'm like making fun of it and dubbing my own dialogue to it and scoffing because my predictions are so accurate and my GF is like "SHUT UPPP!!! It's creepy, okay!". We have very different kind of thinking of 'creepy' or 'scary'.
Usually when we're lending a movie it's like "Oh this was so shitty" or "This is probably the worst and shitties horror movie I've seen". Idk if we have like so sort of unsaid task to find the worst horror movie, or is it just a coincidence that most of them have been just crap.

I have fallen as sleep (because of boredom, not because of I was tired) during a movie two times. And they both were during a horror flick. 

And I avoid this certain kind of horror genre, because I know that I'll be crept out for months. It has quite strong connection to my err... .. let's say 'psychic' -side. Those movies don't need to be like scary, just creepy and realistic, or at least the idea needs to be realistic.
For me, The Ring (USA versio) and The Grudge (Also v.USA) are one of those that have made me very very paranoid and unstable for months. Once in a while they still return to my mind and haunt me.
I mean those movies are shitty, and not so ... well done. I mean Kayako's face is SO SO rubber mask than it can be. And even if I mock the movie it still can haunt me. I think I saw them in too young age. I think there haven't been at least so many other movies (that I can remember by name) that I can recall for making me feel so unstable than those two.

What horror movie needs to please me:

• A good plot and believable characters
• Unique non-mass something 
• Good tech in general (I hate and die inside when special effects are crappy)
• Not kill my fave character off first. 

The movie it self can be weird, but if there is at least two above of those it might have a chance that it survives my crushing opinion. 

I think this is pretty much it, or I cannot atm think anything special to add in here. And it took me forever to write this to the very end! Because I was doing shitloads of things at the same time and my thoughts ran wildly to other subjects during this. So, I'm happy that I was even available to keep it in it's subject XD!

~Cakey ♥

Living in denial

I have lost count of how many times I have been already almost started to write about at least one of these subject. And now I'm finally doing it. Because it requires this shitty mood I'm in. So I'm giving a huge angst and rant warning. And I can't promise that this will make sense to all of ya.
As some of you guys probably know that I have been diagnosed to have depression and insomnia. And now finally it was officially diagnosed that I'm bipolar, I've know this for long myself.

I'll start with Crying, because that subject has haunted me since I started this blog.
For me there is nothing more harder thing to deal with. Crying is that one thing that I do not do. I forbid it, I'm not allowed to cry. It's weak and pathetic.
That's how I have felt about it as long as I can remember, and it means from age 4-5. But my rational side knows that it's okay to cry, everyone needs to cry. It's far away from being weak. But in this my emotional side takes control and forbids it.
Most horrible situation it is that if someone SEES me (or hears) crying.
I spent many years without shedding a tear. But then finally came the day when I broke. Can you even imagine how it feels when you have been locking all those tears for +10 years? Then there was a short phase when I cried myself sleep almost every night.
And when I started to get anxiety attacks they involved crying, along with other things. Then when it eased a bit, I literally couldn't cry. I wanted to, but I couldn't and I have no idea what happened. Because every time I felt tears getting in my eyes and feeling that hotness in my face (u know what I'm talking 'bout?) and when normally tears start to fall, I shed one tear and after that it felt like acid in my eyes, it was burning and smarting, so I couldn't actually cry. And there were no more tears left to shed. It was a fucking nightmare.
After those phases and when my anxiety attacks has clearly decreased, I'm back in denying and forbidding myself from crying.
But I have need to cry once in a while. And then I watch some movie that gets me 100% weep and cry my eyes out. Also this has changed from past.
I didn't cry at all for fictional characters, nor real ones what  so ever. Only time it's allowed to die is when someone really close to you dies. And even then I'm holding back all my feelings and tears and keep them inside.
For example, quite recently (during this year) I've faced death twice and lost my rat boys. Brighter side is that I still have one. And when the first one died, he died so suddenly and naturally. He had heart attack, and didn't suffer. I still haven't been able to cry nor mourn his death, I just somehow can't.
But my other rat made me go Niagara Falls. Since we had to take him to the vet and put him down, because his health went so crushing down and he couldn't just left him to suffer, and he was so old that recovering would've been unlikely. And uh... I was there the whole time. (Oh god I really can't write about this again.. ... so here I'll quote my self from my tumblr.)
   "Dastan was different, it really hurt me to see him suffer and struggle for the last days. And him lying on vets table, looking so small. My mom couldn’t even stay there when they gave him the anesthetics, it was too much for her. But I stayed , I couldn’t left my boy. I felt responsible to be there, for him. And then finally watching life fade away from him. His body still warm after his heart stopped beating. I couldn’t stop the tears rolling down my face and my nose running." 
It was terrible, and I cried over him for few days. Even now thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.
But my 'Crying habits' are still so far away from being okay. My current way is that I deny it and hold it back as long as possible and hope that it goes away, but I can't keep it in and I shed one or two tears that roll down on my cheek and that's it.
Sometimes I wish that I would be able to just cry my bad feelings out and deal like that, instead of doing all this.
Also when if and when I cry, it makes me feel even worse. And I get mad at myself for being such a pussy and weak, & that I had no reason to cry. And then I yell at myself in my head and try to harden up so I wont cry ever again. Because next time, and the only time I'm allowed to cry in when Einari dies. And I have cried that fact too many times already, it will kill me when his time comes. And most likely leads into suicide.

My head feels so fucking numb atm... I don't remember what were other quite related to the same subject things that I needed to write about. Well I'm gonna publish this and then add/edit them here when I remember.

Side effects

This is quite random post and short one (since I'm on my tablet)
I took my sleeping pills for a looong time yesterday so I could actually sleep the whole night. And I did.
But my *cough* "mild" side effects are always the same:
-I wont wake up.
-I'm "high"
And last but definitely not least, I'm SO hungry.
So I just eat and eat and eat. And the most disturbing is that I can't control it!!
My mind says that I'm hungry all the time and that I must eat, even though my tummy says that it's all full and my rational part of mind knows that I cannot be hungry. But still I kep eating.
So funny these pills.
Oh and that "i wont wake up" -part also includes that i cannot physically get out of the bed. Because all my limbs feel so heavy.
These are just the mild ones. I used to have so much worse side effects when I started with this medication.

Oh my Thor o mighty... ...

I don't get how people understand any of my posts.
Because my writing and grammar sucks so badly. AND! My mind flies so fast that my topics make no sense :'D

For this I'm terribly sorry.

Nothing else this time.

~Cakey

Wandering mind

Idk, it was relevant title like second ago.
Because I couldn't remember what I wanted to write about earlier today (ooops! yesterday is now correct. But I'm still gonna use 'today'-form). I tried to think that hard. And my mind wanders so much and my attention span and memory is alike to my rats.
But, then I DID remember. Idk this post is like having kind of, uh 3½ different topics blend together. Because my mind links somethings together, and then they are relevant to each others., but then it jumps to another and woah that was a crappy explanations.
INTO THE REAL THINGS! (I was supposed to write and not this intro shit)

Yeah so I went to see The Amazing Spiderman with my friend this morning. It was Finland's premier. It was indeed AMAZING! And Idk, I liked Garfield as Peter. But you really can't compare McGuire to him. They are in different league.
When we got there, and went to the hall (..I mean there are different movie halls obviously) and it was one of those that are apart from the others. And there it was, on the wall huge poster of Chris Hemsworth, as The Huntsmen (Snow White). And I knew that theaters don't give them away because they go back to the distributor. (I had ask to get Holmes one when Games of Shadows were playing months ago)
So when the movie ended and my friend needed to use restrooms and I got some time, so I decided to ask from the girl who was collecting 3D glasses back that who is their distributor of their posters so I can contact them and get one. She didn't know so she asked this other guy to there, well I asked same thing from him. And he left to ask/check it from somewhere and I patiently waited.
Then he came back and was like "Well Finnkino (It's the Finland's biggest movie theater corporate chain) is" I was kind of relieved and surprised by this and then I asked that where do I have to ask for this poster? Then he was just like "Well I can take it down for you right now, we're going to chance them soon anyways. I'm just gonna go get the ladders! :)" I think that at this part my ability to speak was gone, because I was concentrating to not shake. And my eyes were more sparkly than Edward Cullen.
Well then he got ladder, took the poster down and went to get some tape so I could actually get it home.
And my friend gave me this "Oh my fucking god Cakey, are you serious? DID THEY REALLY GAVE IT TO YOU 8D" kind of mixed feelings look. While I couldn't stop smiling. I of course thanked the dude for this trouble.
Then I started to think that FUCK I missed Avengers AND Holmes. D: ...! Well I'm going to Helsinki to two different Finnkino's to watch movies on Monday so I can see if there's still some big Avengers posters left c: .. I'd die to get Loki on my wall *Q* !!

It was really really big, here take a look. It's me behind it XD And I think I'm 'normal' height girl. Note also that it's partly lying on the floor.
There was funny thing that happened to me while I was carrying this babe home. I was just got out of the train and walked to the bus stop. And this was rolled up, the back showing (it's white). And then this older male started to talk next to me, about curtains and blinds. First of course I thought he was talking to me, but then I quickly thought that 'nahh' he's probably on the phone. So I didn't pay attention on what he explained. Then when he finished he looked me. And I was a little bit confused and went "T-these aren't curtains" and he looks me "Well, what is it then?" "It's poster" then said something. I don't what and walked farther. He got onto same bus, but didn't talk to me. It was weird experience. It's odd if someone random talks to you in Finland.

So yeah now I'm like trying to still find Avengers poster somewhere, if not. Well next year is full of superhero movies ;)

This wasn't my first thing I got from movie theaters. I have cardboard cut Sherlock & Watson on my wall. From the first movies.I finally like last month got them back on my wall. It's been quite long from last time.
And now smoothly moving to my room~>

So yeah now comes the 'Wonderful room of Cakey' I just haven't done this yet, and it should get it's own post but maybe I'll do muuuuch more deeper post some day (will do, I'm certain). But here is my current room and it's wall ALL updates! +2 old photos, when I just had painted the walls :3 I'm not gonna go any deeper than that. so, PIC TIME!

My closet's door needed a little touch.

And I wanted to have owl painted somewhere

I finally painted these! Lowest still needs color

Quite random inspiration. Maybe adding more later

What I see when I'm on my laptop.

This is now covered w/ Chris.

My fave paintings ♥ Still WIP.

*Phew there* .... ... While I was struggling with how to fit all those son of bitching motherfucker ass pics. I forgot what were the other thoughts I wanted to share. Hmmpf well I guess it wasn't important. Also here's last pic that I didn't want to put with those.
It's THE MOST accurate pic taken of me :'D Also see my lovely bed & stuffed toys that I have in here while I'm on computer XD Seriously if I'd had mini fridge next to my bed I'd have like everything SO close :'D

Now I'm off to sleep, G'nite peeps ♥ Cakey